once upon a time

2010-06-19T10:22:00.002+08:00

had been really busy working for the past 2 months!
finally got a day off for me to say home and rest (:
i'm happy that i finally got a chance to enter into the course i want!
but first i have to go through an interview!
I HATE INTERVIEWS ): it's so scary haha!
hope i can get through!

2010-04-04T23:15:00.003+08:00

SHOPPING~!
totally love this long dress although nobody really likes it hahaha! <3

2010-04-04T21:56:00.022+08:00

family outing on the 3rd of April :)
haha my pictures are rather out of place D:

2010-03-25T17:15:00.002+08:00

it finally ended.
after much crying i am feeling much more stable now.
but when i think of doing everything alone or when i take a look at the blog created by the both of us, i will break down again. I promised him not to cry. But i can't ),:
thinking of going shopping alone.
nobody's going to hold my hands
nobody's going to be there anytime i need
nobody's going to follow where ever i go
nobody's going to pamper me
nobody's going to lend me a shoulder to lean on
nobody's going to listen to all my grumbles
i am trying to hard to live with all that for now!

2010-03-23T10:55:00.003+08:00

sometimes i just cannot understand why ):
it's really that depressing after such incidents happen again and again
- yelled me cuz i was late due to work
- told friends he don't know why i was there to watch him play soccer
- told me his mum and grandma didn't like me
- commented on almost everything about me
- changed from in a r/s to single when asked to give more time to decide and think through
seriously i really don't know if you mean it or not
but to me these are really very hurtful memories which i will never forget.
these are really fking stupid and unforgivable misakes that one shouldn't make if u were to think before saying them out.
is it really too much to ask for?
i just need someone to console me when i'm feeling down
someone to treasure me and makes me feel wanted when arnd with his friends

2010-03-16T15:07:00.001+08:00

life is in a mess right now.
who's lying and who's not.
i cannot differentiate now.
i don't know what is the right thing i should do now ): !

2010-03-13T17:32:00.002+08:00

went to meet my bf at IT fair ytd but in e end, i didn't get to eat with him after waiting for an hr plus because he couldn't leave D:
was rather disappointed. aruged but made up (: yep.

went compass point to have lunch wif my mum and sis today
browsed through my previous posts!
i found out i was to zi lian & childish! D: oh gosh.
and how hideous i looked!

2010-03-09T13:44:00.009+08:00

haven't been updating for years!
this is my new life!
and also I'm too bored staying at home these few days
can't wait to leave this house n go have some fun outside ;D
these are some pics i took at my cousin's 1yr old birthday party too!

2009-06-20T20:41:00.001+08:00

gosh my parents are cute aren't they? XD !

2009-06-20T20:36:00.002+08:00

that's me at e start of e journey!

i look tired? yep i am!

on e scary scary bridge D:

that's me 1/2 way thru!
mac ritchie~!

2009-06-15T18:59:00.000+08:00

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2009-06-15T18:49:00.002+08:00

jus blogging down some memorable stuff :D !

2009-04-08T22:33:00.001+08:00

u reading my blog huh?!
<3 !

2009-03-29T09:55:00.003+08:00

dad's back for arnd a week alrdy.
and is gng china again todae D:
gonna miss him again! haha
but its much betta this time round.
haf been working these past few days.
but it sure is fun having nice ppl arnd (:
really had fun although it's really tiring.
din take leave cuz i din wanna miss out e fun wif those ppl.
chances are hard to come by.
ohya. din get to audi D:
skills are DROPPING

2009-02-26T10:23:00.003+08:00

exams are finally over!
finally can sleep early D:
although i cant slp well also. lols
WHO SAYS MY BLOG IS DEAD :x

anw daddy's back! (: haha.
he will be staying till 3rd march before flying back to china again.
mummy seems really happy when he's at home.
i hope they can stay this happy and loving always!

*sigh*
but some stuff just doesn't work out the way they are suppose to be.
sad life ):
i do hope everything will go according as planned.
stay strong! (:

2009-02-06T21:42:00.003+08:00

有些人就是那么贱.
明明自己也有参与, 却要装伟大, 善良
看了真叫人恶心.
世界上怎么会有那么一个人.
只要你问心无愧,你就不用担心.
我相信事情一定会有水落石出的一天 (:
加油!
相信自己,不要听那些狗乱吠!

2009-01-31T22:17:00.001+08:00

ahhh! i noe i look weird D:
buden they look so cute
so i uploaded e pics (:
e sweet lil girl in red is jing wen

2009-01-29T21:52:00.002+08:00

自做自受...
要说的我都已经所了.
不听我也没有办法.
anw the song "我一直都在" is really touching :x

2009-01-19T22:04:00.000+08:00

MY BFF! (:
cute bahs xD

2009-01-18T15:50:00.002+08:00

eeeks.
nothing goes well.
projs and icas all coming at e same time D:
people who can help doesnt want to help.
people who cant help is trying to help. lols
what is this oO
i jus hope i can pass my proj module d:

2009-01-09T21:30:00.004+08:00

went out wif xue peng in e early afternoon.
he bought me a minnie soft toy!
oh gosh. its damn unexpected! D:
thanks (:
then went to meet nic, denny, hc and retna
went to haf lunc at KFC then went robinsons and metro to look arnd to do our CRM proj
after which we went to watch "passenger"
not bad although its rather confusing in e beginning XD
wanted to eat indo food. budden we were all too ful alrdy D:
so we went home instead (:
fun but tiring day.
looking forward to another outing d:

2008-12-21T09:21:00.007+08:00

A BIG BIG thankiew to :

1) elaine, fiona, hui yan, cheryl n sheena for e hp strap n a GREEN tee <3

2) eden, waihong, kaining, junhui n weikhian for e dress!
[ special effort made by them. making a trip down to my house to deliver my doughnut cakes xD although eden was late when he told me he will NOT be late! and jh was sleeping at home D: ]

3) nic and panshuo for e BIG and YUMMY ice cream cake! :p

3) sheng hao for e big choc cake and a cd which i cant read D:

4) squid for e cups, piggy bank n some cute bookmarks!

5) marj for e stripes long sleeved top

6) my family for e hong bao and another choc cake

7) chen yang for e short lil white lacy top xD

from nic and ps:

from shenghao:

from my parents:

from idiot and gang:

- thankiew for everything (: -

and not forgetting those peeps who wished me! (:
xie xie :D

2008-12-07T21:31:00.002+08:00

叶子在窗外轻轻摇动
人行道没有行人走过
镜子里的我很不像我
自从你离开了我变得很软弱
你的影子在每一个角落
好像是在提醒着我
少了你的陪伴我现在有多寂寞
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
我想我可以假装不曾爱过
冰凉的夜里让眼泪温热我
感觉如果要走谁能说 NO
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱情怎么会是这个结果
爱情是个梦而我睡过头

i feel dumb! budden i dunno why i am still feeling this way )*:
i guess my wound takes a longer time to heal

2008-11-23T20:56:00.004+08:00

went over to my aunt's house to celebrate "grandparents" b'dae.
hahas. spent arnd 4-5 hrs dere D:
almost fell asleep.
pics i took wif precia :D

2008-11-15T20:48:00.005+08:00

11th november:

went out to celebrate nic's birthday!
instead of smashing the cake on his face,
he smeared cake on my hand! D: agrh!
ppl from the IT track went to buy present for nic while ppl from the biz track had to go back to sku for tutorial ):
hahas.

13th november:
sku ended early.
planned to collect my clothes de. budden dat idiotic girl was sleeping and didnt pick up my calls ==
dammit. BAD SERVICE!
hmmms. then wh jh eden and I went to play pool
i WON eden anw :D
dat cai niao xP
then wh went home and i accompanied eden until 4.30pm!
loittered arnd PHS
and he acted as an ex PHS student. how FAKE can? (:
rained heavily! D:

14th november:
nic bought 2 cakes to school to celebrate his b'dae tgt wif wai hong and mel
had fun smashing cakes on their faces! :D
lalala. dunno if i will get my retribution D:
*sigh*

2008-10-31T22:34:00.003+08:00

reached sku at 8.30am!
planned to meet at 9am for proj~
wh was late for 10mins, gabriel 44mins, jh 1hr N best of e best eden wif 1hr 20mins (:
cant they be as punctual as us? goodness!
kn drew a welcome banner to invite gabriel into our grp xD
he got a shock xD
anw although we din do much cuz we realised e deadline was next mth, but we had lots of fun crapping and laughing!
after dat gab went for his class and we went amk to eat minced meat noodle (:
walked to amk lib to do survey and went back to sku for an hr of lec
fell asleep :x
after discussing for a really LONG time~ we went orchard to shop and eat!
i did finish my minced meat noodle!
nobody believes me ):
went to mac to rest cuz we were really tired
SHOPPING TIME!
shopped at far east~
kn tried lots of clothes... and she is really slow :x LOL
hmms. went to eat again. i ate beef fried rice.
it looks like plain rice wif vege :X budden it tasted alright (:
and eden almost lost his file!!
in e end we still managed to find it.
its always so enjoying walking home wif kn xD
we crapped along e way toking and sharing secrets!
this is what i learnt todae! "不要吃回头草!"
lalala. BYE :D

2008-10-29T22:58:00.001+08:00

i cant believe i am actually been compared with her.
hahas. dats life i guess.
anw YOU better watch out.
don come and act one close ass hole with me (:

2008-10-22T21:21:00.003+08:00

sku ended early todae.
went amk hub for lunch wif marj and shu zhen then accompained her to jurong east to collect squid's laptop.
the rain was damn heavy!
we got all WET! D:
but we had fun sharing a small unbrella!
took a longggg bus ride to bugis to find "cunning", "idiot" and wai hong xD
its e first time i sang so many songs in front of so many ppl
okie la not a lot xD
wai hong kept choosing all those EMO EMO songs!
oh! eden can sing like fei yu qing! xD
then we went over to bugis street to shop~
had our dinner dere too.
and cunning was toking abt how nottie her sis is~
JUST LIKE HER (:
kai ning claimed dat she is quiet
BULLSHIT man xD
FUN and FUNNY day (:

2008-10-20T22:34:00.000+08:00

there is always this sense of emptiness inside me ):
always feeling a bit down every now and then
hoping to get over it soon (:

2008-10-16T22:05:00.002+08:00

hell lots of probs in sku :x
through these incidents we can really see how people really are.
kinda disappointed.
life is gonna be tough!

2008-10-11T21:23:00.003+08:00

went out for shopping for quite a no of days :x
pretty tired now!
but i bought lots of stuff! hehe
kinda worth it afterall (:
hmmms.
good frien is having r/s prob
and dere is nth i can do to help except to gif some advices
hope he gets over it soon!
time heals everything!
jus dat some ppl needs longer time.
but u haf my support all e way!
jiayou (:

2008-10-03T22:01:00.002+08:00

work work work!
i am so damn tired alrdy =x
still hafta teach some slow retard maths! xD
HAHA jus joking!
jus hope work can end soon!

2008-09-19T12:30:00.001+08:00

15th sept 2008 :

went to east coast park with jin xiong, sheng hao, wai hong and ivy
we cycled for arnd 2 hrs before going to MAC to rest
i reaslied i totally had no stamina and strength to cycle as fast as them
jx said i got fats all arnd! =x
hahas dats sort of his encouragment for me to cycle faster as its gng to rain
then jx gave up and its wh's turn to cycle wif me
he keep telling me we will be reaching soon xD
tsk tsk tsk.
budden i still made it in time!
after dat sh joined us for bowling after his work
at first i used e wrong fingers and i got last!
after i changed i got 2nd!
muwahaha.
anw my bowling still sux la =x
everyone was pretty tired alrdy so we went home (:
long bus trip~
oh yea.
totally GG after i got home
after my bath i went to slp
meanwhile waiting for wh to call me to tell me my results
i passed all ! :D
hooorrray!

16th sept 2008 :

went to sentosa with fiona, elaine, cheryl, hui yan and sheena!
while waiting for sheena, we went to haf our lunch first
after which we went to walk arnd~
exploring!
then we went to siloso beach to play cards and ate ice cream (:
sheena got lost! HAHA
went to look for her and we went to subway to chill while elaine cheryl and fiona went to watch some 3D 4D thingy.
then we went to walk and explore more!
took lots of pics!
had to get home before my dad reaches home
so cheryl and i left first
tired tired!

17th sept 2008 :

went to sentosa again!
got really tanned this time!
actually it was pretty boring cuz we had no BALLS to play wif.
so we played cards.
kinda fun.
jus got to learn how to play ytd.
after dat eden went for a swim.
and he tried to get us wet. but FAILED
then since sh didnt bring extra clothes~
we decided to make him all wet! :D
3 vs 1 !
in e the all of us got really wet.
i could even go for a swim xD
splashed and chased arnd!
OH YEA!
sh cut my face wif his bottle.
tsk tsk tsk
violent man ):
disfigured ler! HAHA
jus joking! its jus a small cut.
din noe it can be dat fun playign wif water xD
after dat we went to thai express to haf our dinner
i had soft shell crab curry rice
pretty hot but nice (:
went home feeling really very tired!
could barely open my eyes! z_Z
jx got food poisoning so he couldnt join us
cy got drunk!
bad excuse man!
he told me he would call back and in e end he forgot all abt it and got drunk instead
AGRH!
he broke his promise!

2008-09-19T12:19:00.003+08:00

15th sept!

wai hong me and jx! okie i look dumb =x

2008-09-19T12:13:00.002+08:00

16th sept!

elaine and me

me, hui yan, sheena, elaine, fiona and cheryl

stupid face! xD

fiona and me!

me, fiona and elaine

2008-09-19T11:34:00.007+08:00

17th sept!

ivy and meee

eden and mee!

ME!

dats e pic of us when we got WET!

HAHA. eden and sh!

2008-09-06T15:52:00.003+08:00

went out wif jx, sh and ivy
we went to orchard to shop and catch a movie 'wall-e'
to me its a really boring show =x
went to my aunt's shop at the esplanade
took some pics (:
had a long but pretty fun day

2008-09-02T20:24:00.004+08:00

jus put on braces ytd..
hurts!
cant eat solid food~
oh well. i can slim down!
hmmm... my braces is green and nobody thinks it nice =x
how sad.
my dad asked me "why did u choose green? even if its ur fav colour but u shldnt put it on ur teeth rite? xD "
anw met up wif andrew, rong zhou's sista, cousin and himself and one of their friends.
forgot his name =x
went to e arcade~ watched them play.
pretty boringggg.
oh yea. rz got caught for underage smoking.
they wanted to smoke at the car park budden the other frien hafta meet his dad
so we accompanied him dere and they smoked outside.
so he got caught =x
how unlucky
rainy day. hahas
mummy sheltered me home (:
thanks mummy!

2008-08-16T11:56:00.003+08:00

it has been years since i updated my blog.
lols.
having tests, projects and exams coming up =x
oh yea.
very stress.
how i wish time could turn back...
but i noe its impossible.
lets move on (:

2008-07-06T16:24:00.001+08:00

celebrated 1 of my cousins b'dae on last sun! :D
had fun...

2008-06-29T15:15:00.004+08:00

ytd was my uncle's b'dae.
went dere to celebrate!
took pics wif cute precia! <3

2008-06-18T20:34:00.003+08:00

rainy day!
wanted to go to pasir ris park budden it was drizzling so we went to changi airport instead (:
had fun walking, emo-ing, chatting and taking photos!
tired but fun!
from termial 3 we took a sky train to terminal 2~
took bus 34 home after dat
fell asleep.
missed my stop!
lols. so had to walk back!

2008-06-10T23:29:00.004+08:00

had a fun day at sentosa.
was a teeny weeny late~
but wasn't e latest.
although ivy likes or loves to bully me.
but she is really a nice and fun person to be wif (:
anw everybody is also nice la. but not as nice xD
hmmmm.... played volleyball, monkey, soccer, chatted, laughed, joked etc!
yea omg.
we saw some foreigners stripping in public!
FEMALE SOMEMORE! =x omg.
anw i din really play la =x
i helped to take pics! =D
so had a longgg day under e sun
but was really fun.
a bit tanned now (:
nice eh.
NATURAL blusher!
if u are reading this post,
i jus wanna thank you for everything you haf done for me.
really appreciate it.
no matter small or big.
it jus makes me happy.
great friends for life! (:
BIG THANKS!

2008-05-19T17:12:00.002+08:00

i finally got my answer (:
abit sad and disappointed.
but oh well.
at least i can carry on wif my life
smile and e world smiles wif u! :D

2008-05-16T22:31:00.002+08:00

was chen yang's b'dae ytd and sheng hao's birthday todae! :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
kn smashed cake on cy's face ytd
todae chu hui and her smashed cake on sh's face!
nice one eh! xD
went out todae.
watched speed racer.
pretty long movie. but still alright la~
instead of watching e movie, we were pretty much throwing popcorns at each other and laughing away.
HAHAHAHA. LONG but FUN day :D

2008-05-14T09:53:00.002+08:00

things are getting so much betta now (:
everything seems to be back to normal.
but i made sheng hao angry ytd
more of disapponted bahs
i lied to him. LOL
anw my motive was to see him get angry.
but he looked pretty scary when he got angry :X
SORRY! HAHA.
had sleepless nightsss.
TIRED!

2008-05-07T22:10:00.001+08:00

i learnt a lot todae (:
watch out!

2008-05-07T11:31:00.001+08:00

miserable day for me ytd.
i think i am jus being stupid la.
i will never shed another tear coz of you.
will be strong (:

2008-05-01T13:53:00.002+08:00

went out wif nic, sh, jx, jerome, denny and ivy (:
went to haf our lunch at pastamania and went to catch a movie ( iron man )
quite a nice movie although i wasnt feeling too good :X
walked from somerset to plaza sing.
on e way we had GREAT fun.
esp ivy and I.
played scissors paper stone!
loser has to do weird stuff! xD
ivy is a sore loser anw xD hahahahaha! jk =P
was really maddddddd ytd!
stopped by at jx's aunt's jap pub.
recorded wad nic sang. heh heh.
he din suspect i was recording though!
so took e train home wif jx.
used to be such great great friens.
in e end.....
we were like strangers ytd.
totally strangers ):
it does hurt.

2008-04-26T11:19:00.001+08:00

no more hatred! (:
life is so much easier and happier without dat!
lalala.
had fun in sku.
but obviously dere are always probs.
will try to solve them!
but dere is a limit to my patience eh?
dont cross e line wor.

2008-04-18T17:18:00.001+08:00

had fun creating death note in sku!
BITCH BITCH I HATE U! :D

2008-04-14T21:50:00.004+08:00

bad start of e day :X
cut my hand while cutting smth
top of hair dryer fell from e 11th floor right to e 1st floor
msged eden a bit too late so we were late
hain pain still hafta wash e dishes ):
lols. a bit sad.
hmmms. anw i really cannot stand it liao sia.
i cant stand e sight of her.
haish.
wonder how i am gonna go on wif sku life.

2008-04-10T20:39:00.002+08:00

planned to meet up at 9.30am~
but was late. 40mins late! :X
lols.
had breakfast and went to play bball.
its was horrible hot!
felt really giddy. HAHA.
almost fainted.
couldnt take it after a while so i took a break.
after they were done we went to take a COOL and REFRESHING bath :D
went to amk hub for lunch and went home.
pretty short but enjoyable day (:

2008-04-07T21:30:00.001+08:00

am i jus purely stubborn or issit partly because my family.
sometimes i really wonder.
do i really deserve this kinda life?
noone noes.

2008-04-05T21:03:00.002+08:00

跟他一起生活真的有那么困难吗?
为什么他就是那么不了解我呢?
其他人都懂只有他.
对他说话时总是要很小心.
怕他会生气怕他会误会.
为什么会那么难过呢?
我道底在想什么呢?

2008-03-19T21:40:00.002+08:00

havent been blogging for quite song time.
hmmms. went out wif hui yan and cheryl todae.
went to watch spiderwick again! LOL!
ate lots of stuff todae.
doughnut, 1/2 tub of ben and jerry's ice-cream, 1 nugget, 3 seaweed chicken, 1 packet of jap noodles, 1/2 a burger and 1/2 bowl of rice! OMG!
how to not get fat!
hahahahs.
anw jus got back my results.
horrible.
got a bad scolding from dad.
had a both happy and sad day :X

2008-03-07T16:28:00.001+08:00

how many times i cried coz of u
how many times did i cry over this fking matter.
and now u are telling me i am not even trying.
yea.
dats right.
u are so right.
thanks ah :D

2008-03-05T09:40:00.003+08:00

haf been rotting at home for e past few days :X
maple and maple
audi and audi!
jx says we are supporting asiasoft xD
dad wasnt in a good mood.
so keep only getting scolded :X
sadded.
mum was biased towards my sis too.
haish.
sad life.
but ytd was alright ler (:
had a bad dream ytd ):
my dream goes like this :
i dreamt of chucky!
is like dat small doll sort of like camouflage lor
like make itself look like a nice doll wif sheep fur :X
then my 2 sis were walking behind it coz they din noe it was chucky
i knew it was chucky and it was after me!
so i ran~
it walked
but it is always like a few cm away from me.
then it keep chasing afetr me.
so i called e police.
e police said it was a nice doll which will not cause any harm
then e police even ask e doll to go into a drak room to drink beer
then i knew smth was gonna happen so i went in.... then i saw chucky killing the policeman :X
then i scream and went to look for my sis and i ran away!
then chucky turned off all e lights
e room is not like those normal house de room.... dere are many rooms
u can be in this room and dere are doors in front behind and on ur left and right
sort of like a maze liddat
so both of us were like playing hide and seek
i locked all e doors around me.
budden chucky keep shaking the doors
like make it sound as if it is everywhere
behind, infront, left and right
then i cried
then after dat i tot of my sis so i went to save her or smth liddat then chucky imitated my sis voice and said "open the door"
but in e dream, i was very smart la
lols! so i din open e door
then when i hear and felt dat it was my real sis
i opened the door for her lor
so we were like in e same room :X
then she cried and cried coz is like as if chucky is everywhere
then she is like shivering badly lor
then i ask her to chill
coz i was chilled liao and happy i found my sis
then after dat chucky shake door until i wake up :X
dats all :X
haish.
BAD DREAM! ):
anw i wanted to call my frien le nian...
but i was afraid chucky was outside :X
so i didnt! )':
hahas. yeaps. dats all~

2008-02-28T23:24:00.003+08:00

went out wif andrew, zhi yong, rong zhou and gary.
went to sakae sushi to haf our lunch.
we were abt 40mins early.
so we practically sat dere and rot waiting for time to pass! xD
had a fun time eating, playing, chatting, throwing stuff at one another xD
after which, Gary went to meet his gf~
wanted to catch a movie but they havent got their pay yet.
so next time! :D
since they haf got nth to do and are such GREAT and NICE ppl,
all of them sent me home!
YAY!
then we were rotting at my block.
we drank, swang, joked, punched, sang, ate, chatted, laughed and caught snails!
had a really FUN time wif them!
e sad thing is WE FORGOT TO TAKE PICS :X
sad isint it.
oh well. dere is always a next time!
oh. i saved abt 1day of andrew's life.
coz i broke his cirgattes~! :D
wad a nice frien rite?
thanks!
thankiew ppl for e enjoyable day!!! :D

2008-02-27T20:27:00.002+08:00

had a fun time hanging arnd marina square wif wai hong, kai ning, shu zhen, jin xiong and sheng hao.
we merely wanted to take a look at my sh's mum look like.
in e end she invited us to go try e food~
lols.
although was a bit unwilling. but e food was not bad :D
laughed. smiled. joked. shopped. gossiped.
and i went home alone.

2008-02-25T11:55:00.002+08:00

sometimes i jus dunno wad i really want.
i know one must be sure of what they want.
but i am jus feeling so lost.
was thinking sometimes its either i was expecting too much or you really dunno wad i really wan or is thinking.
if you know, why dont u say or show it?
nobody will know if u dont show it.
*it doesnt harm to say something nice*
sometimes girls are jus sensitive and fragile.
they need care and attention.
jiayou my friens (:

2008-02-24T11:49:00.002+08:00

recently, i jus don haf e appetite to eat in the morning.
my mum tot i wanna slim dowan dats why don wanna eat!
ahahahas.
but dats not e case
i jus don feel like eating :X
feeling a bit empty inside.
incompleted.
many thoughts running through my mind everynow and then.
feeling so down.
hope this feeling fades away soon

2008-02-19T18:56:00.003+08:00

managed to complete my dcn quite smoothly todae (:
haish
don wish to think abt my java.
don wish to study
but don wish to fail. hahas :X
while studying, dere were so many thoughts running in my mind.
is e decision i made e correct thing to do?
still unsure.
how long do i needa go crazy over this thing?

2008-02-18T12:57:00.004+08:00

some friens told me its not worth it
some told me not to be silly and jus give it another try
wad do i really want?
am i trying to avoid or am i jus scared.
if dere is a 1st, 2nd and 3rd time, will dere be a 4th?
totally lost dat kinda believe and hope i used to haf in you.
feeling really disappointed now.
promises u made are impt to me.
can see dat u are trying hard.
but is dat enuff?
haish.
learning from mistakes is e most impt thing in life.
i think i jus need time to chill.

2008-02-17T17:14:00.004+08:00

to me i was merely toking and playing arnd wif my good frien
if u wanna think otherwise then i dunno wad to say ler.
i can understand its ur first time
but from wad i think its a bit overboard.
yeaps.
totally lost faith in you.
i cannot take it.
i am tired

2008-02-17T09:38:00.002+08:00

went out to compass point lib to study ytd.
was soooooo cold :X
anyway dere were no proper tables and chairs xD
so we hafta sit on e floor. yeaps.
studied till sheng hao was hungry!
after our lunch,
nobody had e mood to study already!
all of us practically sat dere and rot :X
after gng home, nobody had e mood to study too.
was a bit feverish and still had to pass smth to chen yang!
blehh.
chatted till 1.15am?!!
sheng hao let us read some cold jokes plus guess some riddles~
killed all my brain cells xD
overall had a fun day ytd :D

2008-02-15T00:06:00.002+08:00

now coming to think of it.
sometimes i really wonder if i did the right thing.
i am jus having some weird feelings which are really bringing me down.
oh well.
time will show everything.

2008-02-14T14:28:00.002+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL :D
esp to someone special!
hahas.
he gave me a BUTTERFLY necklace, a teddy bear(holding on to a bouquet of flowers) and a smal lil card.
was really sweet of him to do dat.
he sent me to sku early in the morning too.
although i expected dat. coz of some of the silly stuff he said last nite XD
but was touched.
had a short but happy day <3
thx for making it happen.
anw jus tot of this:
如果时间能够停下来那该多好.
我发现到其实爱一个人比被爱更难更辛苦.
而且爱一个人是没有错的.
所以如果你被爱,那么你就应该珍惜眼前的一切 (:

2008-02-13T13:15:00.001+08:00

isint this lyrics jus so sweet?
hahas.
if dere is really such a great guy dat will be great (:
here goes:
may 22nd 2005 was the day
promise to you babygirl, my feelings will stay this way
never wanna hurt you never will I leave you alone
everytime i'am by your side is when i'am really at home
always and forever that's a pinky promise we made
you're the reason why i'm smiling eery start of the day
and i hope you know i mean it everytime that i say
i love you always and forever, it'll always be the same
through all the joy and pain i wanna be there for you
crying everytime you cry and sharing laughter with you
when i look into your eyes, i know when love is really true
ain't nothing i wont do if i can see my baby smile
remember you can call me anytime you're feeling down
no girl could take your place and love me like the way you do
so imma hold on tight because i need you by my side
its me and you forever babe, i need you in my life
*we were created to find each other
our fate written down for us to love forever
our hands locking tight as i look into your eyes
of that one special person who would complete my life
you were the one i chose out of all the rest
the one who i would cherish and i'll put in all my best
just to stay in your arms as you hold me tight
cause baby, being with you feels so right*
every single second that i live, i'am thinking of you
how we met was destiny our love is honest and true
tell me what am i supposed o do if i ain't got you here
i wanna be the one that's by your side through the years
gonna be the one who's gonna fight away all your tears
replacing it with happiness and take away all your fears
one day we're gonna look at our pictures and reminisce
crazy all the things you do to me with just a little kiss
i wouldn't trade you for the world, you're all that i need
you're the only girl that ever got me feeling so free
and i love you with all my heart and soul till i die
i truely need you baby, you're the light of my life
and i know it that one day for sure you're gonna be my wife
jus hold on tight because i'm always gonna treat you right
and baby and my closest friend, i love you baby girl
until the day i die, i'll try to give you the world
*CHORUS*
if loving you is wrong then i don't wanna be right
can't imagine what this life would be without you by my side
the day we met, i can't explain the way that i felt
feeling all these emotions that i can't even help
if i didn't meet you, there would be no smile on my face
you doing everything to me to make my heartbeat to race
every little thing we do is jus to special to me
we are meant to be, there's something that i truely agree
and i know its fate and destiny, i see it in your eyes
everytine you smile, i cant explain the feeling inside
always gonne treat you so good exactly like the first day
jus promise to me baby, that you'll never go away (:

2008-02-12T20:29:00.000+08:00

baked cookies for everyone ytd for valetine's day! :D
hope those ppl who got e chance to eat my cookies feel e love from me! <3
first time baking ah!
don blame me~
hahas.
gonna bring it to sku on thurs too~
shang lian ah~
hehes. studied in sku todae!
tummyache though :X
pretty hard day for me.
but its alright (:
miss my chocolate milk tea~
anyway don eva go NYP de IT blk to photocopy stuff!
the aunties dere are SLOW, NOISY, NAGGY and they EAT my papers xD
LOL!!!!!
dats all! :D

2008-02-06T10:01:00.001+08:00

exams are coming and yet i havent really started studying :X
always feeling so sloppy and lethargic.
really gotta wake up.
cant afford to get such a LOW and PATHETIC gpa!
jiayou! :D
hmmmm.... all i can say dat misunderstandings are caused by insecurity and wrong way of expression.
really gotta slowly figure out
u jus hafta observe more before finding out the truth
i promise i will be patient :D

2008-02-04T17:41:00.000+08:00

had dcn lec todae from 11-1
in e end i went dere to haf a chit chat session and lunch break wif nicholas and shu zhen xD
BAD INFLUENCE eh?! hahas.
jus joking.
had fun though.
went to haf lunch wif jx, sh and ps.
lols.
ps was pretty mean as to keep laughing at sh's new hairsyle :X
he din wan it also ma :X
hahas.
dats all 4 todae! :D

2008-02-03T13:38:00.000+08:00

went out to meet Andrew, my pri sku frien.
he told me he would bring only 1-2 friens.
in e end he brought 3!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
oh well.
they are very nice ppl although they smoke and drink.
one of them loves to sing.
has a pretty nice voice too (:
e other looks lyk a small kid to me.
he lyks to spoil stuff! xD
e other looks lyk a kind ah beng (:
had fun being wif them.
although e chairs are wet making me stand for e whole nite,
but i enjoyed listening to their stories, laughing and joking wif them :D
when will be ur next visit? HAHA :D

2008-02-01T20:21:00.000+08:00

went vivo city todae
fun but tiring day :X
went food republic to haf our lunch.
everyone was hungry so we ordered quite a number of food.
nick ordered some weird stuff xD
vegetable rice or smth liddat de.
wif a HORRIBLE soup!
he still told us its nice and asked all of us to try.
humph.
wad an evil boy! xD
spent almost all of e time dere searching for squid's present!
but couldn't find e suitable gift for her :X
gossiped, chatted, shopped and finally home :D
dats all for todae!
anyway i fell in love wif this song called "tiamo"

2008-01-31T21:10:00.000+08:00

some people realise their mistakes but some dont.
treasure some things more than any other people.
u jus haf to go realise it.
don wait till its too late.
wad is done cannot be undone.
but u can always make up for e mistakes u haf made
and i am sure u will be forgiven (:
observe well.
stand in other ppl's point of view.
zou yi bu suan yi bu bahs.
some things jus cannot be forced.
take it easy.
good friens are betta than anything else :D

2008-01-29T20:49:00.000+08:00

meet jx and sh at 10.30am
wanted to study a bit of stats de.
but they were playing CS.
tempting eh? :X
then Chui hui came.
so played till it was time for lunch.
then eden came and lastly.... jen.
after lunch, we went back to lib room and played mahjong!
OMG la. darn slack.
hmmmm.... so i went to e toilet!
was so zi lian la ==
go stick out my tongue!
bei fa xian ler :X
so paiseh la. GOSH!
so i went back and do proj lor~

2008-01-28T20:08:00.000+08:00

wonder how long i am able to take it.
seeing all these things dat is happening around me.
facing ppl i don wanna see.
puting on a fake smile when i am not a bit happy.
i wonder if i am able to take it
one after another.
it jus keep coming.
tot everything would come to an end.
promises made.
can i really believe in them? :X
totally lost confidence.
you must be feeling really happy abt it.
DAMN U ALRIGHT?!
sometimes girls are jus so senssitive.
they jus get to see things ur guys don get to see :X
and dats why we don feel good too and ur don notice.
so cant blame.

2008-01-27T21:40:00.000+08:00

alrights.
now then i realised it is a misunderstanding.
how great.
felt a bit ke xi.
now i finally realise how impt TRUST is.
u can trust e person.
but u must be sure if dat person trust u too.
if both of ur trust each other, nonesense wont come into ur mind.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
i can only laugh now.
dunno wad to do now :X
nvm.
put all unhappy past behind!!!!!
cheers )':

2008-01-26T17:43:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really wonder.
issit e way i think
or issit e way i am being treated :X
i seriously dunno lors.
wads more impt?
sometimes i jus feel neglected.

2008-01-25T22:50:00.000+08:00

havent been blogging for quite some time ler.
was too busy wif projects! :X
sians.
so tired now.
slp at 1 wake up at 6 for e past few days.
cant stand it so last nite i slept at 11 ! :D
hahas.
chiong proj till 5.30pm todae.
totally screwed up on my econs proj :X
was too last min.
oh well its over.
anyway i felt bad la.
ppl are helping me for e java proj.
and yet dere is nth i can do for my own proj!
sadded.
feeling so useless.
really hope dere is smth i can do to make it up to them.
if not i will feel horribly bad :X
so after e proj, we went to catch a movie "THE MIST" at bishan.
LOL!!!!
it was more of a gross and funny movie more than a horror movie :X
was a bit disappointed!
but had fun hanging up wif my class peeps :D
someone always tell me tis "kai xin jiu hao"
and true enuf, dats how i feel too :D
hmmms.... haf been doing some thinking.
oO?
pretty confused abt smth which only i can figure out myself.
hope i can think through (:
*yawns*

2008-01-19T22:23:00.000+08:00

do wad u think is right.
don hafta care abt wad ppl think or say abt u.
if ppl don appreciate then so be it.
dats wad my frien told me (:
argue argue and more arguments.
jus think dat u don hafta give in to me.
if u dowan jus say it.
don hafta force urself to put jus because i am dere.
and remove it when i am not.
jus don lyk dat.
forget it if dats wad u think.
since u think dats more impt than anything else. fine.
i feel as if i am nth to u

2008-01-17T18:59:00.000+08:00

couldnt express how i am feeling right now.
are ur friens really true friens?
or are they jus appearing nice
are they fake?
true friens don hurt u
and can still act as if nth has happened
neither will they backstab u.
being taken advantage of.
i don gif a damn abt wad ur think abt me.
put urself into other ppl's shoes.
would u wan ppl to do dat to u?
i give up.
i am tired.

2008-01-16T01:57:00.000+08:00

I AM STILL ALIVE! :D
muahahahahahahaha xD
hmmm.. jus finished my management proj!
was freaking pissed jus now.
feeling so much betta now.
alrights.
time to slp! :D

2008-01-14T21:38:00.001+08:00

Your True Love Is a Cancer

Why you'll love a Cancer:

Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt.
Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up!

Why a Cancer will love you:

You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs.
A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

2008-01-11T20:53:00.000+08:00

i tot wad i see on tv will never happen real life.
but it did.
it happened to me.
hard to say.
i don wish tok to abt it.
i have been feeling so down and confused.
how many of these probs do i hafta face?
its coming one after another?
cant i jus lead a normal life like other ppl?
cant i jus be wif e person i like for as long as i like?
why must all these fking probs happen to me?
fked up.
don ask why.

anyway had a fun day outside after sku.
went to amk hub.
waited for nic at amk mrt sation coz he went to collect his keys.
so we chatted and rot dere xD
it was cooling coz its raining.
i was mostly emo-ing la.
in e end we went to amk hub to sing K.
they forced me to sing "bei feng chui guo de xia tian" wif garlic ==
hahas.
pretty cool experience la (:
i sang horribly anyway xD
OH! it was freezing in dere!
and e toilet totally sux!
HORRIBLE, DIRTY, *pukes*
forgot abt those sad memories for dat short period of time (:
now gotta focus on studies ler!
hope so go out again sooN! :D

2008-01-10T18:58:00.000+08:00

had such a tiring day todae =X
studied DSPT in e lib todae after sku.
although it was a bit boring.
but ppl around me gave me support (:
thankiew :D
i am sure i can do it wif ur help :D

2008-01-04T18:55:00.001+08:00

morning call 3ppl todae!
one was sick and too tired to even pick up my call
e other 2 overslept.
in e end still late xD
luckily e teacher wasn't here.
isaac chang took over xD
anyway its a sad day!
got back my java paper.
to my horror
i got a big fat 0!
haish.
nth to say.
hehes.
but i can jy for my final paper wif e help of everybody! :D
JIAYOU! :D

2008-01-03T20:09:00.000+08:00

met up wif rae ytd at abt 10pm.
had a small chat at my blk downstairs.
looks older than i thought. LOL!
met up wif justin todae.
look so different from his pic xD
HAHA.
he drove me and kai ning home. hehes
free ride.
thanks eh.
had a chat, gave him his b'dae present and i went home (:
feeling so cold now!
wrapping myself up wif my blanket!

2008-01-01T21:23:00.000+08:00

was lying on my mattress waiting for 12 to come.
HAHA.
i guess too many ppp were smsing
dats why all e msges came in at weird timings.
woke up at 12, 12.30, 1, 1.30, 2, 2.30, 3, 3.30, 4.30, 8 and 9!
OH MY GOD!
so i don haf a good slp =X
wanted to take an afternoon nap de.
but i chatted on e phone wif my frien for a while.
had a 15mins slp when suddenly my dad came in and dragged me out for dinner
got scared by a cat!
HAHA.
dats all for todae.
tiring day!

2007-12-31T21:23:00.001+08:00

oh wad a boring day.
rotting at home for e whole day.
todae is new year's eve!
but dad's at home.
no choice hafta stay at home! =X
sadded. aha
going mad soon.
yea!
sku is starting soon.
but projs R not done yet =X
oh gosh.
gotta jiayous ler (:

2007-12-29T11:06:00.000+08:00

had class BBQ ytd!
went to buy stuff and have lunch wif Wh, Jx, Nic and Sh
had fun walking and shopping in NTUC
then mel came to join us for bowling.
we are all noobs in bowling!
jx wasn't too bad.
had quite a no of strikes!
for wai hong was not bad already as it's his first time bowling.
i was bad at it la.
they said i smashed e ball on e floor! xD
alamak. ppl dunno ma...
hmmm.... was waiting for eden and kai ning de lor.
but they we were taking too long.
so we decided to wait for them at e BBQ pit.
we were carrying loads of stuff!
and only kai ning came to HELP! (:
thx!!!! dat was so kind of u!
so had tons of fun~!!!
had drinking game, true or dare etc.
kai ning, eden and wai hong got really drunk! esp KN!
oh gosh.
chen yang and i accompained them to 7-11.
alamak! disaster la.
kai ning was screaming and crapping wif her friens on e phone.
she never jumped onto wai hong and asked him to carry her! xD
ROFL!
so HEAVY!
they almost rolled down e stairs! oh gosh.
when it comes to e nite,
we all got really HIGH!
everyone was HIGH!:D
after much fun, jen, nic, kn and me took a cab back.
i think e uncle was confused bye us @_@
dats why he din charge us extra.
from east coast to eunos to seng kang to punggol only cost us $14! :D
hehehes.
but on e cab, i was feeling really down.
i guess i was drunk.
but i only drank 2 mouthful of beer.
went home, took a bath and went to bed.
din get to slp though.
was thinking a lot.
cried too.
was jus feeling horrble ytd after e trip home.
hope todae will be a betta day ^^

2007-12-27T21:27:00.000+08:00

went to sku to do proj todae.
was abt 20mins late!
reached at abt 1.20pm.
HAHA!
did almost nth in e lib till 6pm!
oh! sh and jx cut their hair xD
so eden's hair was e longest among e guys
i helped them measured.
and i think jx's hair is e shortest! kaka.
oh.... helped jen to massage her leg. LOL!
got a blue black!
wonder wad she do sia.
hmmmm... was very painful so she grabbed jx!
awwwws.
poor boy. lols.
my leg hurts too on e way back =X
hafta limp back home =(
sadded.

2007-12-26T23:21:00.000+08:00

went to meet cyrus at bugis junction to watch "i am legend"
planned to meet at 12 de.
still told him not to be late
but in e end i was late! xD
hmmmm... i am legend is nice
but pretty scary.
something may jus pop out from e dark!!! eeeeks.
oh well. then met up wif marj and mel to do proj..
almost feel alseep
wasted time in e lib! HAHA.
tok and play most of time e time. hehee.
but had fun though.
oh bear went to cut his hair.
he was sad.
cuz his hair is too short!
i ask him style so dat he looks like a porcupine! :D
lets see how (:

2007-12-25T15:38:00.000+08:00

MeRRy ChRiStmaS t0 all~
went to my aunt's house to celebrate christmas ytd!
exchanged presents too (:
( exchanged MANY times! )
at first i got a chipmunk soft toy but my cousin wanna swop wif me so swop lor.
after dat i got a pencil box wif a maple cashcard.
but my cousin was so sad she din get maple cashcard so swop again!
and lastly! i got a $20 converse voucher and a box of chocs. but my other cousin looked disappointed when he only got a mushroom soft toy. so since i don need e vouchers and din haf anything in mind, i swopped again! xD
how cool eh?
exchange..... swop.....change.....take.....give.....
as long as they are happy i am happy ^^
had a fun day ytd although i hurt my leg =X
looking forward to next yr's christmas! :D

2007-12-23T14:50:00.001+08:00

tired of studying java.
felt like giving up =/
need support!

2007-12-21T21:01:00.000+08:00

had a fun day wif dear dear although we had to run a lot of errands xD
firstly we went to orchard to help my younger sis buy her keychain
then hafta go dhoby ghaud to watch warlords
thirdly, we went to sengkang to borrow a book for my youngest sis
lastly we went to punggol plaza to visit shu zhen! :D
HAHA. ooh she rebonded her hair!
DAMN straight ler! hehes (:
can show off liao~
xD bet she damn happy.
okays. warlords is a nice movie.
but peeps, if u are afraid of blood, DONT watch! xD
WARNING!!!!!!!
thankiew for accompanying me todae!
hope u like e lil gift from me to you ^^
had a fun day (:

2007-12-16T17:42:00.000+08:00

went out wif hui yan and her classmate ye sheng.
sort of went out to celebrate my b'dae la. hahas.
he reached at 2.30pm
hui yan and I reached at 2.45pm
since we were thinking we were early, we decided to go find sheena.
hui yan was still saying "guys shld be abt 1/2 hr earlier de wad, how can he be later than us"
without realising ye sheng was already dere!!!
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG !!!
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
lost our way~
din noe where sheena was xDD
met ye sheng somewhere and went to walk around.
but it rained 1/2 way
so we took shelter and ate ice cream!
ye sheng treated us!! :D
thankiew thankiew!!! (: yum yum.
hmmm... wanted to take neo prints de but hui yan din wan xDD
so nvm lot ((: hehes. a bit weird to take wif only 3 ppl.
dats all!
oooh. got a dolphin necklace from ye sheng! (:
nice! thanks again ((:
had an enjoyable day :D

2007-12-12T21:28:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to me! :D
would like to thank fiona, elaine, cheryl, sheena, bi yong, hui yan, chandra, hui xin, tyler, thomas, le nian, zhao yun, hui ling, jia jing, saywee and?!
1) hui yan's classmates ( david, yu sheng and hendri )
2) my class peeps esp( jin xiong, ivy ang, sheng hao, chen yang, wai hong, marjorie, shu zhen )
3) peeps from 0701 ( ivy sng, sheu, jia yan etc. sry if i missed u out. ) but is very grateful for dat b'dae song and wishes (:
4) pri sku peeps ( nafisah, andrew, clifford and jeremy )
i had a great b'dae this year!
thankiew peeps (:
love u guys <3.
anyway i went out wif my dear frien shu zhen, wai hong and sheng hao (:
went vivo city.
had lunch and then went to shop for my present!
they got me lots of chocolates!! =p
yum yum~ thankiew! (:
thankiew ppl once again for e wishes and presents!
had a great day todae :D